"too many times ive been wrong, i guess being right takes too long. im done waiting there nothing else to do but give all i have to you and i better find your lovin' i better find your heart.."-drake ; find you love (inspired song for this post)
Finding my love is not a mandatory mission, its nothing that would complete me but is something that would compliment. I just want something I could run to when everythi
ng seems to not be going right or when that lil dark grey cloud over my head likes me a lil too much, something so simple as a smile or a joke to lighten my day but not just from anyone but from him, the love im trying to find. Although this has been very hard i havent lost any hope. With many misses and not many gains i do have faith that im getting close. My heartbreak was deep i admit and ohh how ive grow to admit it, but with that heartbreak i promised myself never to get to close to someone to feel that again which made me the heartbreaker to some guys ive ran into these past months and again i apologize for my mixed feeling and my sudden lack of interest boys it was either your background checks playa or just your failure of going with the flow----"you coulda been the one but it wasn't that serious" -drake.
I cant wait for the day to come when i truly have found something to come close to it because all the wondering and my curiousness could finally be at ease. I deserve it i know i do even though others may disagree i know there wrong, there not in my shoes they just judge on past mistakes and not so smart decisions. I may not be in the best shape to start something meaningful since ive never was expose to it but im trying to find someone who would convince me to just break down the walls ive built these past years, well most of my teen years. Even with the high and the lows that come with being in love i wanna go through it i wanna have some sort of knowledge towards it and not always be that independent chick, cause even a successful lady needs someone to hold her down in the end. We were created with love so we might as well give and receive it.